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Ramblings  nung thursday, i finally saw chibi and powie sa despidida ni brian. believe it or not but after the bonfire that was the only time i saw brian again. not counting the time that i saw him with ivy in dilimall since he didn't see me and i didn't draw attention to myself, me being in a pair of shorts and a sweaty t-shirt, having just finished jogging with my ate. yeah, the irony of it all. i see brian during his despidida a few days before he leaves for the states. and yes, brian was clearly shocked to see us there. but he was grateful. of course, i wrote a message. a rather cheesy one. the only really good thing was that i got a picture with him. as in kaming dalawa lang. although, it was far from serious. paano kasi, nag-aadik si brian. he was making funny faces. so, i did my usual wacky pose. pero meron kami picture, kami mga taga cl. ah, but some things never change. nakalimutan ni brian na he introduced his gf ivy to us during the bonfire. i got to hug brian as well. of course, i really don't like hanging out with chibi and powie since they tend to leave me by myself. not that i mind really. i mean, i have been such an independent woman. although, brian did show some concern. i asked him if i would be able to get a cab. and he said yes. and then he said wait lang. i think he was about to assist me in getting a cab pero naudlot. ok lang, it was the fact that he was concerned that mattered. anyway, about the whole chibi thing which i mentioned in my last blog. i am no longer confused. sometime before i did the landmark advance course, i had a conversation with my ate about that problem. after the advance course, i was able to talk to chibi. as it turns out he had a gf. we decided that we were better off as friends. so, yun problem solved. about him. may naisip akong name for him. mr. big as in the one from sex and the city. anyway, about mr. big. well, i have been saying that the way we relate to each other went back to the way it was at start of the previous semester. in fact, it was worse. apparently, that only lasted for the first few months. adjustment period kung baga. haha. kasi, now hindi na ganoon. weird nga eh. three weeks ago nung last day nang july mr. big said my name in a barely audible voice. pinansin niya ako. he was late and was having something xeroxed. and i was still in school. i think i talked to him a bit. then the next day, pinansin niya ulit ako. the following week nung friday ulit i waited for him talaga. i was selling carbonara kasi and i knew that he would buy. of course, he was running late as usual. and i thought i would have to wait until his class ended. pero di pala. kasi bumama siya. mr. big was going to have something xeroxed kaso wala yung xerox boy umuwi na. he asked me, if the xerox guy left and i said kanina pa. so, he just bought some carbonara. nagbigay ng 200 and i was trying to calculate how much his sukli was in my head. of course, my brain wasn't working properly. he decided to supply the answer and then i realized, kulang ang sukli ko sa kanya. i said, i owe you 20 pesos. he nodded. and said thanks. the next day, nagdala ako ng brownies. and as usual nagustohan ng mga classmates ko. including mr. big. siya nga halos ang nagubos nung isang tupperware ko. haha. gutom talaga. i gave him his change and he said thank you again. so right now, im classifing our relatedness as complicated. about the kid. well, obviously the kid has been nice to me from the get go. he's a stark contrast from mr. big. and can you believe my luck, he ended up as my partner in a project. much like how mr. big became my partner before. actually, its a bit different. mr. big and i became partners because of a lucky draw. but the kid became my partner because he asked me to be his partner. its funny how that happened. it just so happened that i was sitting near him in class at the time. and i think we were both confused. you see, this project was supposed to be an individual thing. but our teacher changed her mind and made it a pair project. the thing is, the kid and i thought that we were going to pair up only one the thing that we supposed to do that day. so, he asked me to be his partner. when the kid realized that it was the whole project and not just the task for the day, i thought he was going to change his mind since we had another classmate who wanted him as a partner. the truth is, it wouldn't have mattered to me if he had changed his mind. and i thought he would. instead he tells the other person that i was first. our classmate reacted and i said he's the one that picked me and not the other way around. i do have a feeling though, that if i wasn't sitting near him, he wouldn't have asked me to be his partner. i keep falling for the kid. here's the thing though that i noticed. i have spent my time hanging out with my classmates more than myra. i don't know why, i keep hanging out with my classmates when most of the time they make hirit. okay, i do know why. its because of the kid, obviously. here's the funny thing, the gf of the kid herself has been making hirit. it's been making me wonder if my classmates know about my crush on the kid. another thing, people who tease and make hirit don't bother me anymore. i just don't react to it. a few weeks ago, i was working with the kid on our project in the canteen. one of my friends goes to the canteen to eat and she sees me with the kid. she didn't say anything but gave me a look that clearly said "uuy!" i pretended not to notice her. everything is easier if you are face to face. haha. can you believe it took almost more than three hours of chat on ym with my partner to finish something. geez! it never takes that long to do that had we been face to face. of course, we just took advantage of the no school by doing schoolwork. Current mood:  creative.Current music: no boundaries- kris allen.
yeah! haha! edward's hot! i always knew it was edward! lolz! Current mood:  happy.Current music: bleeding love. more than a few weeks ago i attended this seminar called the landmark forum. it was very interesting and insightful. i realized a lot of things during this forum. especially things related to the past. particularly during highschool. one of those things i relized involved the only guy that ever courted me. i had just realized the resons why i never allowed him to become my boyfriend at the time. one of the reasons was because i had been in actuality afraid of getting into a relationship because i was afraid of getting hurt. i had seen people around me cry because of break ups and i told myself that i never want that to happen to me. another reason was that i was totally and utterly head over heels for someone else. i was still dreaming of being with my crush in highschool. this person was a friend of mine as well just like the guy that courted me. but the worst reason yet was because of my prejudice and bias about him. you see, the guy that courted me was disabled and sort of special. which i was somewhat grossed out by. i was his friend but i was being very very plastic. i was afraid of what everyone would say about me if he became my boyfriend. of course, during that time i gave the excuse that he was annoying. whcih he was in a way. now, a few days after i took the landmark forum, he calls me. and i make it a point to tell him everything since, i said that i would get closure with him during the forum. i do tell him everything and then he asks if i was willing to try right now. and i said yes. because then, i was willing to try. i was supposed to meet him two saturdays ago but i used my injured foot as an excuse not to go. then he calls me on friday night. as it turned out he called the night before but i was in another seminar. he invites me to go out on tuesday. but this time i say maybe. and that i will try. since i wasn't sure if of my schedule yet and wether i will be assisting every tuesday night. here's the thing, when he called i couldn't wait for our phone conversation to end. i was so bored because it was so redundant. and when it did i was a bit relieved. but it left me thinking. about how our relationship would work if right at the start, even before it starts, i am feeling this way. i don't think we would work out at all because i am not as in love with him as he is with me. i don't even think i love him enough to even try. we aren't in a relationship and already i feel bored and strangled. what with him constantly wanting to see me. he's calculated how long it's been since i last saw him. freaky. while i couldn't care less. we talk about all the same things. mostly other people in school. he asks the same questions all the time and i can't stand that. i don't know. i am really really confused. i am not sure wether to give it a try or not. i want to be in a relationship. i want to experience heartbreak but i have a feeling i'd like to try it with someone new and not someone from my past. or maybe i just don't want to try it with him. i didn't meet with him last tuesday. i don't want to see him until i know what i should do for sure. Current mood:  confused.Current music: you found me- the fray. kanina sa eccd 183, i found out na nagiba ang schedule namin. di na pala sa 20 yung party sa brave kids. sa 27 na pala yun. at first nanghinayang ako kasi, perfect na sana yun. tamang-tama sa birthday ko. instead, magkakaroon kami ng technical rehearsal para sa film showing ng bunso. yung bunso kasi ang aming final project. and i had no idea na yun pala ang gagawin namin. nagulat ako. and i asked hollie kung nasabihan niya si mam jac about my plans. kasi si hollie ang isa sa mga nasabihan ko along of course with mike. apparently, she did kaso hindi nagregister sa utak ni mam jac yun. hayy, buhay. i was thinking na masyado malayo ang 27 sa birthday ko. sa 25 na kasi yung film showing. and yun lang kasi ang time na available yung director ng film. kaya ganoon. so, i was agreeing to provide food sa film showing namin. disappointed ako. pero kanina napagisip-isip ko na i don't mind extending my birthday at all. hollie kasi asked kung pwedeng ibang date. pero it was kinda far from my birthday. the 27th is much more nearer myra's birthday. anyway, last year kasi my birthday extended from the 16th all the way to the 30th. this time simula september 17 hangang september 27. i really want to celebrate my 23rd birthday with those kids na may cancer. it has been something i have always wanted to do. palalampasin ko ba ang pagkakataon na ito? i don't think so. di na ata kasi mauulit ang ganitong pagkakataon eh. i know kasi that if i don't do this, habang buhay kong pagsisihan ito. so, never mind kung maging super delayed at extended nanaman ang birthday ko. ang mahalaga i was able to do something meaningful and charitable nung birthday ko like last year nung magpakain ako ng ice cream sa isang daycare malapit sa amin. so, all i have to do now is tell hollie na nagbago isip ko. i was reading some articles that my mommy carol (my dad's mother) wrote. dating columnist si mommy carol sa inquirer. and her column was called family chats. i was amused and amazed by her colums. sayang nga, walang nagpatuloy ng column niya eh. walang natiyaga. but lola elong told me na ako na lang. i would if i were capable of writing like my mommy carol. or at least like my mother. and my first piece would be on the party sa project brave kids. so, i need to plan the party with my classmates. since, i changed my mind. Current mood:  crappy.Current music: Crush- David Archuleta.
how true! this is the most acurate quiz i have taken! haha! lolz! Current music: Crush- David Archuleta. today, i attended the leadership seminar in school. hollie asked me if i was interested in joining. and i said yes. i was interested because i knew that i would learn something from it. but i told hollie that i was going to attend philo first before joining. which i did. as it turns out, only two of the officers from the org attended. si hollie at si april. me and mikey joined even though we were not org officers. so apat lang kami from the org. when i came in, the teacher was in the middle of her talk. i sit in the back at first. it was only during the first activity that i move near hollie and april. the first was activity was to answer a series of questions. and we had to a pentel pen which i didn't have. hollie noticed me and told me to move near her. but there was no vacant chair near them. so, hollie's brother nico gets up and gets a chair for me. it was really nice of him to do that. i sit next to april. and i stay there for the rest of the seminar. i listened as the teacher talked about leadership. then we had another activity. the task was we had to get all our shoes which were scattered across the room without breaking the tissue paper that bound us together. it was really fun. april and i stayed in front. and i was lucky enough to get my slippers right away. in a way, it was a bit hard. but i just followed most of the time. i did however manage to get a shoe since i was the nearest one. after processing it, we went on a break. april and i went to savemore. i bought food since i was hungry. afterwards, there was some more discussion and then we went on a lunch break. april and i stayed together. april wanted some tocilog from the carinderia and i wanted some wendy's. pero walang tocilog. so me and april ended up eating in jollibee. we barely talked. in fact, i was tempted to ask april some questions about mike. but i didn't. although, nung nasa banyo kami april revealed a bit of info on mike. she said that mike treats her like a pawnshop or bumbay. because he's always going, april tissue or april alcogel. haha. dami kasing laman nung kikay kit niya. when we returned wala pang tao. april was considering not attending na. and i asked her if she was feeling op. hindi naman daw. kasi, ako i was feeling slightly op. slightly lang naman. if it weren't for sina hollie, i'd really be op. april was required to be there as an officer. ako, i just wanted some experience. first time ko kasi sumali sa ganitong seminar. i wasn't required at all. later, the seminar resumes. and we do a task that requires blindfolds. the class was divided into 3 groups. and i ended up being the leader of one group because i didn't have a blindfold. di ko naman kasi alam na kailangan ng ganun. eh, i just joined at the last minute. my groupmates were april, hollie, beau, kalvin and carla. we group leaders were instructed outside. we were supposed to make our groupmates draw a house without saying its a house while blindfolded. and each member could only draw one line at a time. when i heard this. i was already thinking of the terms that the eccd teachers use. sleeping line, standing line, slanting line. and i thought it would be easy. boy, was i wrong. it was during this activity that i realized my lack of leadership skills. clearly, i was not meant to be a leader. i was meant to follow. apparently, kalvin didn't know what a sleeping line was. and i couldn't explain what i wanted them to do. geez! but i knew, i wasn't any good at explaining. and since our house was not looking like a house at all, i decided to make the girls draw windows and doors. i got exasperated. in the end our house looked like a toddler's drawing. i told the teacher that i had a hard time since i didn't realize that not everyone knew the terms i was using. after that there was another activity called buring building. where we had to get over the line. that made me really nervous since i had absolutely no capability of getting over such a thing. heck! i couldn't even get over a small bar. and i told hollie this. and she realized that i was right. she remembered via's kwento. but hollie told me not to worry kasi she'll help me and that i should trust her. i said, i do trust her. but the thing is, the teacher made us count off by twos. and i ended in group one. i didn't end up with hollie at all. so, i became nervous. but hollie immediately went to mikey who was my groupmate and told him that he'd have to help me because i wasn't at all flexible. mikey grins and says that he can carry me. and i believe him. he looks strong enough to handle my weight. haha. anyway, mikey was the one we stepped on to get leverage. the first time, it was matikas and anna who helped me. i was able to jump nicely but i made myslelf fall down on purpose. although, anna helps me up. i was fine the first time. but when we had to do it again since one of us made a mistake, i was like oh no. the second time was worse. i took of my shoes. and this time it is matikas and david c. who help me. the thing is, di ako nakabuelo. and i think, matikas was this close to carrying me. which i didn't want to happen. so, i attempted to jump but i hit the line as i crossed. i get my shoes again. and then, i stay beside hollie as i watch the others get across. mikey was last. it was an extremely high energy activity. the last activity was called blind count off. we all needed blindfolds. eh, ako wala. so, i was provided one by nina. we stragtegized first and then had a team cheer. our stragetgy was one by one. the person who has number 1 will clap until the number 2 person finds him/her. tapos, the number 2 person will stomp until the third person and so on and so forth. so, lahat ng odd numbers clap, lahat ng even stomp. i was number 7. nung nagstart kami, i counted silently until it was my turn. i just went straight to the sound. and found the person before me. tapos, i felt someone hold on to my shoulders behind me. all the while, i had a feeling it was anna. and i was right. si april pala yung first. i lost track after my number. after the activity, we processed all three activities. then, the teacher discussed some stuff about leaders. then, she showed us some slides and made us listen to the song alaapap by the eraserheads. sina hollie talaga ang kulit, tinuro ba naman ako when they heard the name tala. may linya kasi doon. natawa ang mga kasama ko. at pati ako. although, nahiya ako. after that, nagbigay sila ng certificates of attendance. by groups of five. at magkasma kami ni april. tapos may special awards. hollie had one for being the most helpful. and it was true naman kasi. she was very helpful. mikey had one for having the most sabaw moments. kasi naman, si mikey through out the day kept making hirit, making the teacher laugh. after that, nagpicture taking. hehe. then, i help fix up. and then, nagpasalamat si hollie sa amin ni april sa pagpunta. and i told hollie na palagi naman akong maasahan sa anything org related. at nagbye ako kina hollie at april. ay, during the lecture, the teacher mentioned taking two steps backward as an org if there is low attendance in meeting and events. and i told hollie, we need to do that. kasi our org has low attendance in everything. and she agreed. tapos, there was the hedgehog concept. which was interesting. medyo nahirapan ako. and upon looking at my circles parang superficial ng mga sinulat ko. anyway, i was really glad na i decided to attend the seminar. kasi i had fun and i learned a lot. i made hirit to hollie after she asked if i wanted to attend the seminar that she was grooming me to be the next president. at the rate im going, i might become a future officer. i tell people all the time that i don't want a position in the org. i don't want the responsibilty. but the truth is, i secretly do. its just that i don't really think im capable. although, im sure the responsibilty will make me a better person. i don't have enough self- esteem and self- awarness to become a leader. but i could always try. hehe. Current music: Crush- David Archuleta. july 23, 2008- today i went to healthway for my insurance check-up. gosh! i hate that place. whole process almost took 2 hours. i was late for class because of it. good thing teacher beth understands. i just missed an activity. which is what they were doing when i arrived. teacher beth told me to pass mine next week. the highlight for today was, happened after class. when i told my classmates before they left to bring something for show and tell on friday, since it was my activity for 182. mikey made a joke which i didn't appreciate. and then my crush mike, came to me and held my hand. before saying the exact same thing mikey just said. i didn't react. i just smiled. i was to kilig. when i saw hollie later on, i gave her a high five with the other hand. the one that mike didn't touch. haha. crazy me! i was too happy. cute eh! lolz! july 19, 2008- today was the first time i attended 183. late ako pero mam jac didn't mind. she was in the middle of a discussion. i sat in the back. and offered to those in the back the cupcakes that i brought for a taste test. ate ella, hollie and claud were the first ones to get. the aircon in the classroom was busted making the room so hot. i listened to mam jac. then we watched a film. and mam jac made us group up and do a task. i ended up in a group with my other crush luis, jannica and ags. the problem with my group was that no one wanted to think. so, i ended up writing and thinking of the advocacy plan. i ended up being the leader by default. ags and jannica were not much help. at least luis was taking sharing ideas and trying to understand what needed to be done. but i did most of the legwork. like i said, it was hot. so some people were using pamaypays already. someone borrowed the one luis was using, so he had to borrow someone else's. and besides, luis made paypay me while i was writing. i tried to concentrate on the task but all i could think of was how lucky i was to have one of my crushes make paypay me. omg! anyway, we were the last group to finish. di nga namin nabuo eh. hirap eh. jannica offered to write on the board. and i was glad kasi i hate writing sa board. then we realized someone had to explain. we made ags do that. and i requested na sila-sila ang magsalita kasi my voice was no good due to the colds that i had. luis ended up explaining some things. talagang napunta ang mga bokya sa amin. and our team was called team tala. si ags nagisip nun. kasi nga daw ako ang leader. i don't think mam jac was very happy with our group. after class, i offered some people cupcakes again. this time april, mike and myra got some. nasarapan si mike sa cupcakes ko. which made me glad. sayang nga lang, at hindi ko napatikim si luis ng cupcake. despite the fact na nagusap kami about hum 1 before he and jannica left. ok na din at least napakain ko yung isa. hehe. august 19, 2008- seeing mike today made my inis dissapate. kanina nainis ako because i wasted my time waiting in a hospital for nothing. 2nd time ko nang pumunta doon. and now i have to go back on thursday. anyway, i arrived early. before mike's class ended. i saw them playing through the window. i was standing near the stairs waiting for more students to in the classroom. actually, i was waiting for mike to come out and hopefully notice me. mikey came out first and noticed me. he gave me a fist bump. i asked him about the games they played. and he the games were for retarded people and then he started yelling as he went down the stairs. i just laughed at his antics. claud noticed me as well. i also asked her about their class. the others didn't notice me. but i didn't care. mike was important. but mike stayed behind and talked to teacher dena. teacher dena came out first. then mike came out and closed the lights. akala ko he wasn't going to notice me. but then he looks, punches me on the arm and says "uy! i almost didn't see you there. ano class mo?" and i say " hum 1." and then he goes "bakit di ka pa pumasok?" and i answer " i don't want to be so early. wala pang tao sa classroom." he points out na meron na and then he says " its never to late to be early." wala na akong nasabi. my head was spinning kasi i was talking to him. and then he says "pumasok ka na nga." and i answer that i will as he goes down. iniisip ko na wala siyang right na pangaralan ako. while we were talking. in my head, i think about the real reason i was still there. i was waiting for him. and that made my day. although, i believe na i looked at him kaya niya ako napansin. had i not looked at him, hindi siguro niya ako mapapansin. come to think of it, mike did have to right to make sure i went to class, siya nga pala ang vice president for acads na org. haha. naging happy ako after seeing mike. august 20, 2008- seeing mike does make me happy. it does make my inis dissapate. today was a gloomy day that turned into a happy one. i had a fight with my mother and my lola. and it was because of something stupid. so, before going to school i cried and i ended up missing philo 1 because of my talk with my mom which delayed my leaving and traffic due to the rain. i arrived at 10 am when class was ending so, i didn't attend. the rain was pouring. a lot of students were there. i fed my classmates some cookies, as usual they loved it. april and mike came down after their class. april was wearing heels and she sees me wearing flip flops. she asks me to trade with her. i thought about it. tapos she changes her mind. then she comes back and i tell her na okay lang sa akin na magpalit kami kasi i don't mind having some hieght even for a while. i offered mike and april some cookies. mike eagerly gets some saying na gutom na siya while me and april trade shoes before her next class. agreeing to trade again after flcd 18. kaso, it turns out 18 was cancelled kasi may sakit yung baby ni teacher beth at saka classes were suspended after 12 noon. much to the chargin of a lot of students. the thing is i couldn't leave agad. i had to wait for april dahil nasa kanya yung flip flops ko. and i counldn't commute in high heels sa ulan. besides, i didn't want to go home on account of my fight with the people in the house. i needed time for things to cool down. this i explained to some people like claudine and april. april naman explained why she was wearing high heels. kasi daw, yung pinsan niya sumabay sa kanya at bumaba somewhere. eh umuulan, so april offered to trade with her cousin kasi maglalakad siya. eh, april drove. i ended up eating lunch with mike, april and t. cindy. nagpalit na kami ulit ni april ng sapatos. and i joined them. wala pa naman akong balak mag-lunch but i reneged. andun si mike eh. buti nga sumama ako kasi talagang nawala yung pagkabagot ko. mike's smile totally melts me. april bought a pair of slippers but was coaxed by us. we ate in jollibee. there were a few lines and i was contemplating what to eat on limited budget. i ended up beside mike for a while. and mike notices me and put his hand on the small of my back ang urges me forward. he asks me what i was going to eat. by then, i decided on a burger steak. i move behind april. but that sensation thrilled me. i orderd a buger steak and a large drink. t. cindy and april sat down already. mike was still ordering while i was waiting for mine. i sat down beside april. and mike sat in front of me. i was sitting in front of mike for the second time during lunch. which really made me happy. mike talked about his girlfriend a bit, albiet reminding me that my chances with him were nil. he seemed to be in love with his girlfriend. yet he was a nice concerned guy who sometimes liked to tease. i participated a bit. opting to listen instead. of course i was staring at mike noting small details like that tiny speck on his finger that looked liked like a bit like blood or something. of course, i decided not to point it out. after lunch, t. cindy left and i walked with mike and april. napansin namin na walang jacket si mike. so, me and april tried to persuade him to buy one. we walked outside para makapag yosi si mike. tapos we got back to school. i stood outside for awhile unsure of what to do. until april said yosi daw muna ako. eh, i don't smoke. then, i remembered that i had to charge my phone. so, i went in. i knew mike and april were working on their report in 183. i read a book. mike and april ended up beside me because mike needed an outlet for his laptop. he unplugged the electric fan. after a while mike needed another outlet for the speakers. it was a good thing my bat was fully charged by then. just in time. before i left, i said goodbye to them. i was happy. august 22, 2008- today i got the full use of our car. hence, for the first time ever i was in a short skirt and heels. i clearly got noticed for it. and beau said that he loved my shoes. i love those shoes too. i saw mike and april after my class. and i was hoping i'd get to join them for lunch again like last wednesday. but it didn't happen. it turns out, we had a presentation in 182. we were supposed to do an activity for math. yikes! and i wasn't even prepared. so, i just bought some flash cards and used that. i was however, supposed to make a memory game. i just had no time at all. mike bought take out from jollibee and i talked to him while he was in line but i left right away. later on, i saw him and april sitting in the hallway outside the classroom waiting. i stood there, i wanted to dump my stuff in the room before buying something. april offered to bring my stuff in when the classroom became vacant but just as i was about to say yes, the classroom door opened and the room became vacant. i quickly ran into the room and dumped my stuff on a table. as i ran out, i bumped into my professor for that subject and i told her that i was just going to buy food since i haven't eaten yet. she nooded and i left. upon, my return our prof began lecturing. i was one of the last ones to present. i was so unprepared kasi. i watched as mike presented. april's presentation included some lemonade which she offered to us. i was going to some as well but another was presenting. mikey drinks from the bottle that mike used to make the juice. and after seeing that, i decided to get some from mike's bottle as well. but i didn't drink from it. i took an empty cup and poured some. the juice was good. maybe because it was mike who made it. hehe. after class, i mill around the classroom. i wanted to talk to hollie. mike was showing hollie and claud his camera. it was nice. and in fact, mike was going to take a picture of hollie and claud when i decided to make singit right beside claud. and i only did that because mike was taking the picture. the picture looked really nice. besides, that wasn't the first time i made singit while the guy i takes a picture. did that a few years ago during a field trip. hehe. so, that made me amused. august 23, 2008- today there was a future leaders assembly for highschool students. and of course, my alma mater, colf was represented. when i got in, nina informs me that t. maite is there. natuwa ako. and before i went to my class i decided to say hello to t. maite. i only had to pop my head in the door for t. maite to notice me because she stood up and went over to me. i make beso her. and i tell her that i have class. then, i go to class. only to see that we are watching a film. it was 'Death Row' a film that i saw before. anyway, i had a nice position right behind mike. i told myra that t. maite was there. i was fine with my position until mike moved. mike is a big guy and when he moved a bit, he was blocking my view. so, i had to move a bit too. while watching i decided to munch on some food. and hollie and mike asked for some. i gave them. sino ba naman ako para tangihan yung crush ko di ba?! hehe. after a while luis who was sitting next to mike moves back. and i tiered of adjusting move into his seat beside mike. here tricky asks for some food which was naubos na. then tricky starts asking about the movie. and i gladly tell her, since i saw that movie before. after class, i see the monopoly game. and i offer to do the attendance for class. i put mike's name right after mine on purpose. after that, i spot t. maite again and i go to her. then i join her as she goes down the stairs where she is acosted by tricky, anna and nina. we pester her with questions as tricky hangs on to her arm. then t. dena comes down and remarks na baka mahulog ang teacher namin since we made kulit her on the stairs. to which i reply, that our teacher is as strong as a horse. which in a way is true. di basta, basta natutumba si teacher maite. anyway, we were jelous of the max's they were eating. i buy food at wendy's and then i decided to make tambay in school. i didn't feel like going home anyway. doon ko nakita si mike. eating lunch with april. as it turns out april apparently brought extra food for mike. luis and jannica were also there. i sit down near them. and mikey kindly pulls the chair out for me. when mikey leaves i move closer to mike and april. i started talking to them. mike was waiting for his class with teacher dena to start, if they were going to have class. shalom starts talking about their edart with teacher dena. and i start feeling sorry for them. i took edart before with teacher cel. i was shocked to hear na wala silang workshop. anyway, their class was just a meeting that took place where we made tambay. my fries where finished off by people who couldn't resist getting. but of course, di ko matangihan si mike. haha. but it was hot downstairs and when mike offered to go to a classroom, i joined him and april. i cooled off while watching mike who decided to sleep. mike looked so cute sleeping. after that, we all leave. and i go home. but not before i end up following mike and april like a stalker. haha. Current mood:  crazy.Current music: high- the speaks. yesterday, was a another good day. and of course, mike was the reason. hehe. i missed philo by accident and i spent time in the library working. aba! himala hindi pumasok si luis sa library. he just stayed outside. pero i did say hello to him nung lumabas ako para maglunch. mj managed to persuade me to sit in her class with teacher dena. i agreed but left after teacher dena started taking notice of me. classmate ko si mike sa 18 ngayon, kaya ako naeenganyo. hehe. syempre, i went straight to the classroom kasi i noticed na bukas ang ilaw. april was there using mike's laptop. she gave me the handout for class. and i thought i'd need to have it xeroxed. so, i went outside. mike came in and said hello just as i was going out. pero, wala si ate xerox. so, i go back into the room. nagulat ako kasi walang ilaw, so i thought na umalis sina april at mike. but when i entered i realized that they were there watching a movie on mike's laptop. they were watching "lorenzo's oil". i take a look and mike asks if i was going to read. i said that its fine. i can read without lights. so, i read for a while. then, mikey comes in and was surprised by the lack of lights, and i explain that april and mike were watching something. after a while april leaves and me and mike talk. we talk about harry potter and mike was asking about the 7th book. he really wanted to read it and i told him that i'd lend it to him. i said that its better now habang wala pang masayadong ginagawa sa mga majors. so, he said okay. anyway, si teacher beth mismo, nagulat dahil walang ilaw. haha. so, i also explained to teacher beth why that was so. after teacher beth discussed dramatic play, she made us group up by three's. anim lang naman kami sa class. and claud was immeadiately asked by mikey to join him and tricky. of course, ako, i really had every intention on being with april and mike. syempre. and that's where i ended up. anyway, we all left the classroom. i left to join mike and april kasi i thought we'd talk about the project. kaso, mike and april ended up talking about another class. and i was standing there looking stupid. anyway, we were talking about 182 wondering if there was going to be class. i was explaining to my classmates that we were supposed to do something sa 182. anyway, i was just standing near mike and april. mike was asking me for ideas. then, dumaan si claud sa harap namin and mike decided to tease claud by putting his arms around me and april and saying group tayo. and then he says to claud na kunan niya kami. claud didn't react she just glared at mike and tricky wonders what was happening. mike just says that he was teasing claud. anyway, after mike's smoke. we go back up. and mike quickly suggests a japanese shadow play. which i quickly agree to. astig yun eh. but he points out that movements will have to be exagerrated. i know. i have seen one. ginawa yan sa pbb celebrity edition 2. and that we'd all have to be in black. anyway, back in the classroom the three of us sit down. mike fixes a chair for me. how sweet. and i sit beside him, facing him somewhat. we start talking about the storyline. then mike thinks about his idea and says na baka nakakahiya yung gagawin natin. but then he thinks some more and says, sabagay nakagawa na sila ni april ng documentary na nakakahiya. kaya wala nang ano pa. and i laugh, saying oo nga while giving them a low five. but i point out, na ako may mukha pang ihaharap. pero, wala naman akong hiya. haha. at some point, tinopak na ang ballpen ni mike. kaya he borrowed my violet ballpen (which is now officially scared). and then he wrote what i needed to do in my notebook. as in he took my notebook, my violet notebook (which is also scared now) and wrote in it. buti na lang, hindi niya tinignan. mike made me do all the buildings and scenery. but i complained kasi im more of a writer. di naman ako artistic na tao eh. pero, wala akong magagawa. tapos, a few weeks from now, i think on the day before my birthday, we are going to present it sa class. wow! swerte ko, ka groupo ko nanaman si mike. haha. and that made my day. today naman was interesting. i brought book 7 ng harry potter and i waited for mike para maibigay sa kanya ito. i waited for a while after his class. and i saw him. i give him the book right away. but before that, i saw myra's mom in tropical hut and she treated me to lunch there. so, i didn't have to spend on food at all. nagulat si mike when i handed him the book. but he was happy and he said thank you. si luis naman classmate ko sa hum 1. doon kami nagusap. we both sat in the back and we were both bored to death. i was so bored that i started writing stuff. dramatic stuff. i asked luis about his autobiography. his was 2 pages long. i said mine was already 6 pages long and i was done with grade school yet. then luis mentioned that he studied in colf for like a year. in 1997 when i was still in grade school myself. his teacher daw was T. Mical whom i knew but never became my teacher. she was teacher to one of my siblings though. this was news to me as i never remembered luis. mind you, i always had my eye on the guys that i liked then. haha. after class, i talk to sarah for awhile only to spot moji talking to someone. someone that looked strangely familar. si sangko! si sangko former student council president. back in school to get his diploma, and to wreak havoc. haha. i was so happy to see him. i missed that crazy bastard! i hugged him eagerly albiet awkwardly. i think i was supposed to give him a playful slap but i ended up hugging him. which i don't normally do. it was moji who got a playful slap from me because of a remark. and i spent sometime talking to sangko. reminiscing the good old days. sangko was cringing when me and moji were telling him about life in school now. sangko didn't change one bit. he was still the crazy bastard that he was almost five years ago. of course, the real reason i stayed around was because of moji. a chance to talk to moji was something i wasn't going to pass up. and i teased moji about his up coming birthday. and i told him, i know your birthday because eight days later it would be mine. but i almost forgot that he and i were the same age. i knew i was going get left out of moji and sangko's talk. i even tried hitting sangko because he was teasing me like he used to do. haha. some people never change. after a while i say goodbye to the two boys. i give both low fives. it was really nice to see sangko again even if he never changed. he still has the capabilty of driving people insane. haha. so, my day was made. Current music: Tuliro- Spongecola. here are some old entries from my friendster blog which i haven't updated since feburary last year. Addicted to CSI i have an addiction. i am addicted to csi. i watch all three on Axn. i watch season 5 of csi las vegas on dvd all the time. it is really interesting plus the guys are hot. my fixation for csi has made me obsessed with crime stories. i watch crime night and guilty or innocent on the disovery channel. i am enjoyring reading crime and mystery storys. i just love those nitty gritty stuff. September 11, 2005 in Television my none existent love life i am now wondering when my love life will start to exist. i still don't have a boyfriend. and all my friends know that i am looking for one. i have even asked some of my friends to set me up on blind dates. i want to meet guys. i chat with guys on ym but most of them are far away like in other countries. when will i have a boyfriend? March 03, 2006 in just me cute, hot guys! wala na si kevin covais. si ace young na lang ang love ko. anyway, hotness talaga si eric szamanda aka greg sanders ng csi las vegas. pero hot din talaga si chad micheal murray. at si adam brody. lalo na si tom welling. in the local side. hotness talaga yung tunay na jay-r at si alfred vargas. pero hotness pa rin si dion ignacio. at si dingdong dantes hehe! at si richard guiterrez at syempre is rainier at si jc de vera. ang daming hotness na actors! March 31, 2006 in Television snow on the blue river (story) it was a cold october night and a beautiful young girl was walking alone. her name is Yuuka. she went out with her friends but none of them lived near her. the air become colder and she became a bit frightend. oh! how she wished they had invited the guys especially Kenta. she knew very well that Kenta would walk her home before going home himself. oh! how she wished that Kenta was beside her and that his arm was about her shoulders. (oh, well next time) she thought. the next day in school. "hi!" said Yuuka to her friends as she went to her seat. "hi!" they replied. "hi!" Yuuka said to Kenta as she sat down. "hi!" replied Kenta smiling. "so, i heard you guys had another malling expedition." "how was it?" he said. "oh, it was fine." "but it was night when we finished and i had to walk home alone." she replied. "ahh," said Kenta. "where you scared because i wasn't there?" he teased. "no." replied Yuuka curtly. "ha, ha, ha! yeah right!" said Kenta grining. Yuuka did not reply to that remark. during lunch she sat with her friends Miki, Emiko and Chiharu. she was a bit pissed off at Kenta for teasing her. she hardly taked to him at all. after class when she was just about to leave Kenta caught up with her. "Yuuka, i am sorry, please don't be mad." he said. "i won't do it again." he added. "you always say that." said Yuuka angrily. "no, this i mean it." he said. "i am really sorry ok?" " look, do you want me to walk you home?" he asks. "ok." Yuuka said smiling. "so does this mean i am forgiven?" asks Kenta as they walk. "yes." said Yuuka grining. they talked for quite some time, walking side by side. at some point Kenta puts his arm around Yuuka's shoulders. and she lets it stay there until they reach her house. at the doorstep they bid each other goodbye. and as they do Kenta kisses her on the lips. she is shocked but happy. "Kenta..." she stammers. "i love so much Yuuka." he said. "i love you too." she replies. and then she falls into his arm and kisses him. from then on they stayed happily together forvever. the end April 06, 2006 in stories happy ako! i am so happy! because my brother dino got into u.p. he passed asian music. and i am so happy for him. all that hard work paid off. and all those lessons as well. at least now my brother has a school to go to go. in diliman no less. only one tricycle away. at least he is not going to end up in kalayaan like me. haha! anyway, i am so proud of my brother! i knew he could do it. that's all. April 07, 2006 in family life american idol i was just watching american idol. and chris just got eliminated. when it was announnced that chris and kat were in the bottom two, i predicted that kat would go home. but instead it was chris. i had predicted that chris would win. but now i think kat might win. unless elliot can bring it. i hope taylor gets eliminated next. it's anybody's game now. and they all have to bring it in order to be in the finals. May 11, 2006 in Television odd american idol happening i just watched the season finale of american idol this morning. and taylor hicks won. i wanted katherine mc phee to win. but in last nights performance, the last song gave taylor the win. simon cowell himself predicted that taylor would win after his last song. and he was right. actually, it is good that a guy finally won again in american idol. at least taylor broke the cycle of the boy-girl match up in which the girl wins. the thing is i find him odd. anyway, the finale was packed with numbers and there was a golden idol awards. cris and ace were nominated for best male bonding. but it was the cowboys who won that award. ryan seacrest himself was nominated with taylor hicks for the same award. it was long and interesting season finale. but it would have been better if it was cris in the finale with katherine. May 24, 2006 in Television My friends poem (poem) * the following poem is a poem written by my good friend Clarice Abad during our fourth year. it is a really nice poem in tagalog. that has a lot of meaning. so i decided to post it. KAPAG IKAW UMIBIG... By: Clarice Abad Sa bawat patak ng tubig At sa sandaling ika'y umibig Ang tubig na ito'y magsisilbing luha Na dadaloy sa nalulumbay mong mga mata Ang pag-ibig ay isang musika sa puso Ngunit sintunado't masaklap kung ika'y mabigo Para kang nakahiga sa matinik na rosas At ang nagdurugo mong puso'y nakaposas Bagamat ang pagmamahal ay nagbabago Dadalhin ka nito sa tunay na tahanan ng iyong puso Lumilipas ang oras at maghihilom ang sugat Sisikatan ka muli ng araw at makakasabay ka sa pagsayaw sa dagat At sa pagyapak ng iyong mga paa ika'y matututo Pag-ibig ay huwag seryosohin, kusang lalapit ito sayo Dahil ang sinulid ng kapalaran ang mag-uuwi Sa naghahanap mong puso at ang pangungulila mo'y mapapawi June 08, 2006 in poems melancholy december it's christmas eve. and i have been such a drama queen these past few weeks. i know december is a time of happiness and stuff. but i feel so melancholy. all, my drama sessions started after the noinois christmas party a few weeks ago. when the group found out that i had a crush on iver. my friends said that i was so obivous. hmm, i couldn't help it. then, iver tells me his plan. to act in front of the group. we text and have these comments on yg. then, sunday comes. the group kept on teasing us. and all i could do was laugh. in fact there was a picture of the love triangle as they termed it. here, all hell breaks loose. because some people asked me to blog it for yg. which i didn't want to really but no one else would. i guess, i went to far. because then, a few days later iver sends me an email. telling me that we aren't going through with the plan. i'm ok with that. but the email also said that were some comments about my blog. iver's email actually made me cry and i don't know why. so, i react. i send a message to the group letting them know that i don't want to blog on yg anymore. which, causes more reactions. the term that iver mentioned was probably referring to both my blog and my clothes that sunday. so, people where wondering what happpened and why was being dramatic again. after a few days i get an email from one of the members. which hits me hard. which when i decided to keep quiet. i am such a drama queen. kuya don told me not to copy him but i did big time. geez, i am so crazy. so, now i feel a bit melancholy. because the cold makes me dwell on the sad stuff and my problems. ok, i should stop being so dramatic. December 24, 2006 in just me my brother's song (song) Eh Kasi Dino Pascual Tapos na sa wakas Simula na nang bagong bukas Paalam sa iyo kaiskwela Tayo’y mawawala na Sa tagal n gating pinagsamahan Kilala natin ang isa’t-isa Chorus: Eh kasi maasaya kayo kasama Pag nalulumbay, pag di makasabay sa biro ng iba Paalam sa iyo Sana magkita pa tayo Kung bukas man o kalian man Kahit saan kung saan magtagpo At hawak mo aking kamay Sa bawat na pinagdaanan At ngayon sino ang aking sasandalan At hawak mo aking kamay Sa bawat na pinagdaanan At ngayon sino ang aking kaibigan Chorus: Eh kasi maasaya kayo kasama Pag nalulumbay, pag di makasabay sa biro ng iba Paalam sa iyo Sana magkita pa tayo Kung bukas man o kalian man Kahit saan kung saan magtagpo Repeat chorus Kung bukas man o kalian man Kahit saan kung saan magtagpo February 17, 2007 in songs ayan! that's it. all my blogs have been merged. itong lj ko at yung sa multiply ang natitira. hehe. Current music: dreaming of you- selena. yesterday i was happy because me and myra finally talked at nagkayos na kami. via was right. our friendship wasn't about to get destroyed over a trivial matter such as grades. but it turns out, myra has some issues with mj. and her issues with mj somehow affect me because mj is also my friend. but hopefully, everything will work out. today i was once again filled happiness. since i got to see the guy i thought i wouldn't see until tomorrow. i came to school early. mainly for myra who wanted me to pass on a letter to mj. i did see her. and i stayed in the library with mj. at around 11, mj tells me to join them for lunch. i was complaining, telling mj that if we leave now, i wont be able to see mike. who's class ends at 11:30. but i reneg. joining mj and the others for lunch. we ate lunch in jollibee. after lunch, we head back to school. there, i spot luis and jannica. luis was holding a book. the book i lent to mike. apparently, mike asked luis to give the book to me and say thanks. i guess mike knew that luis was my classmate in hum 1. i was shocked. and i was disheartend by the fact that mike didn't return it himself. so, i thought he left already. and i complained to mj that mike didn't bother waiting for me to return it himself. so, i decided to sit on the bench and talk to luis for a while. and while i was sitting. i feel a hand clasp my shoulder. when i turn to look, its mike. then mike thanks me again for the book. and i nod. i was surprised to see him. and i say na ang bilis niya. he borrowed it nung friday and was done by monday. four days. shemay. si luis mentioned that it would take him about a month to read that book. wala daw tigaya magbasa si luis. but me and mike are bookworms. syempre, when i saw him. naging super happy ako. and i went into the library to tell mj. luis and jannica decided not to attend class. and before luis left with his friends, he said goodbye to me. nagpasusapan namin ni luis yung reporting sa hum 1. which is individual and voluntary. kaso, masama ang track record ko sa reporting. but i want to para lang igiit kay mam lim ang fact na ang mga students won't learn kung di sila interesado. anyway, naging masaya ako ngayon dahil nakita ko sina luis at mike. im sure bukas, maging masaya at maganda ang araw ko. 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